PART 1
“I saw your wife pulling the baby… she’s not even fit to be a mother,” my mom told me on the phone, while I was locked in my office at two in the morning.
My name is Alejandro Cárdenas. I work at a financial firm in Santa Fe, one of those places where people brag about not sleeping, as if ruining their lives were some kind of badge of honor. That night I stayed up reviewing an urgent contract for a client in Monterrey. My wife, Mariana, was at home with our three-month-old baby, Mateo, and with my mother, Teresa, who had moved in “temporarily” to help us after the birth.
At first, I thought it was a blessing. My mom had always been strong, organized, one of those women who, at family meals, controlled even who sat next to whom. Mariana, on the other hand, had been fading away for weeks. Before, she was an architect, cheerful, with a strong personality. After Mateo was born, she started walking as if she were asking permission to exist.
“It’s postpartum exhaustion,” my mom would tell me.
“Mariana isn’t ready for a house like this,” she’d repeat.
I believed her. And that still hurts.
Our baby would cry every time I left the house in Lomas de Chapultepec. It wasn’t normal crying. It was like something was breaking the moment I closed the door. Mariana said she was exhausted, that she couldn’t take it anymore, but when I asked her what was wrong, she’d look down.